A week (or so) in review

Seems like so long since my last blog.  Without being able to post pictures I feel a little held back but let's see what I can recall about the last week or so:
Mason had his first shots with us anyway and it broke our hearts to see this content trusting baby jump when poked with a needle (and I have to take him back two more times for a shot).  We are spacing them out because he is so little so we are doing one a week for three weeks.  :o(

Thanksgiving.  It is one of my favorite holidays, and this year even more so.  Mason looked so cute in his Gobble, Gobble, Gobble outfit, but again since I can't post pictures you'll have to trust me.  I was so relaxed this year, kids playing, people chatting, bonding happening. Just fabulous!  Next year Mason eats Turkey. 

We had a eye dr appointment for Mason.  His eyes don't really come together and this may resolve itself in the next couple of months or he might need surgery...only time will tell.  Also his eyes look healthy but we won't know till he's older if his brain is allowing him to see & focus.  We pray that whatever God's will, he will give us the wisdom to help Mason shine. 

Tyler is going for his green belt Friday, which is a big deal because it means parents no longer attend the graduations.  He begins to do Karate for himself now rather then an audience.  Tyler is so excited for the challenge, and it will be so good for him.

And last but not least, Steve & Dylan join the black belt club in Karate, which is not only a cool uniform change, but the ability to learn weapons training.  They are both really excited and Mason and I will be investing in earplugs to save us from all the karate shouting that I'm sure will increase.  :o)

Over all the greatest event this last week or so has been the love from our family and friends.  From cribs, to showers, to meals and hugs... we can't say enough thank you's.  We all are blessed to have you!

For the coming week...in case I forget to blog (hehehe):

I hope we can find more family time for us.  I know with going back to work next week this will be tough, but it's the thing I'll miss the most. 



Happy week Y'all!

Teary

I get teary sometimes when I look at Mason sleeping on me.  Hearing his noisy little snore, watching his little chin go up and down, and I feel SO VERY Blessed!!!

When Mason's little fingers wrap around mine, my heart melts.  Babies are so precious and this baby makes my heart sing.  To watch his brothers love on him, can turn any day around. 

I am so thankful God let me be a Mommy.  And a Mommy of 3 is beyond my sweetest dreams!!!

Thank you Jesus!!!!

What's in a name??

Since we found out our little boy was going to be ours...he's been called Mason.  His foster mommy started using it then, the social workers, and our friends did.  He's our Mason.
This name has been with us for about 2 years now, long before we were ever called to adopt. 

But there is a snafu
He has a social security card in another name. 

Which means legally he's Alex.  To the insurance company and doctors office.  And for some reason that breaks my heart a little.  I know it's a silly reason....
and come March or April when the adoption is finalized he will be Mason forever. 

No real incite to share or fitting Bible verse, sometimes this process creates feelings and emotions I just didn't know were there and not really sure they have a name :o)

Ummmm, yeah

OK so I can officially say there are now points in my day where I feel overwhelmed with 3 children.  My expectations are too high, too much on my plate, and too many finger nails and toe nails I need to remember to clip. 

I'll be fine... I have just begun to make lots of lists. 

I also begin to work a little this week, and have parent teacher conferences, and a karate tournament (that most of the family is participating in), and am preparing for Thanksgiving, and planning a baptism, and, and, and... I could go on but thats not whats overwhelming me.

Know what it sadly is.....perfectionism.  I want everything to look perfect, I want my kids to act perfect, I want the dog to behave perfect... and it can't possibly live up to my standards.  So I am letting it go.  My kids are GREAT, they are kids.  My sink is full of dishes, but bottles are clean. My dog is...well herself and she just loves us so much she wants to be involved in it all.
My job is to be a servent of the Lord, a wife, a mother, a daughter, a friend, a therapist, etc.  I will work diligently for that which pleases the Lord and I will leave the rest for when there is time. 

Adoption is a process..see I'm learning! :o)

So very, very sad!

I'm standing in the shower today and I realized I threw the brown bag away. 

No biggie right? 

It was the bag that held one of the only pieces that connected us to his first two days of life.  I threw the bag away that had a piece of his hospital bracelet in it. Trash pick up was yesterday.  It's lost forever and
I am so sad!!  I feel awful!!!

It was a connection to the birth mother and his story.  A part of his story we weren't around for and now it's gone.  And I am just sick about it.  ugh!!!

What we could have missed!

This has been a whirlwind first couple of weeks.  With a record breaking snow storm in October that knocked out our power for 8 days, I have lots of stories to tell our young boy when he grows up about his first week in our family. 

I have taken so many pictures of our little guy that when I get a baby book it will be FULL! 

We have gotten everything we dreamed of.  The scrunchy feet when you pick him up, the sweet smell of baby, and when he hiccups he sounds just like a squeak toy! :o) 

When I think of what we could have missed because of fear, it makes me cry! If we had let the fear of adoption, the unknown, or special needs stop us, we would never have gotten this special gift. The Lord is so very good!

I know my skeptics out there will say "but it hasn't even been 2 weeks. After the honeymoon wears off then lets talk." I know there will be struggles, pain and tears...and he is still the greatest gift! 

I can't wait for the rest...
the TPR court date should be scheduled in the next week or so for the beginning of December,
Back to work
Thanksgiving
Christmas
the finilization of adoption
and the rest of his life...


 

Week one

I have my precious baby sitting with me right now.  and I can't imagine our life without him!  He has been such a trooper with the last 5 days of no power and being moved around all over the place.  His brothers are so in love, they check on him when they get up and can't pass him without giving him a kiss.  Daddy has had to learn baby stuff all over again, and loves just looking at him.

He has begun to look in our eyes, can lift his head like a champ, and sleeps 8 hour clips at night sometimes.  We have been so blessed by this precious edition!!  We thank God everyday for this gift, our prayers 2 be five have been answered!