Some of these changes have been easy, some harder but all took extreme faith on the part of my family. Not being able to see what the future holds is a hard thing let go of. Maybe that's just me 😊
Anyway I was with Mason in the grocery store (a feat I would have never attempted when I was working, I just didn't have enough patience.) And he was picking out Goldfish crackers, a women came up to me and said "I like the verse on your shirt, and that's exactly what you're doing ." Now if you're like me once clothing is on I pay very little attention to what I am wearing. I said "oh thank you" feeling fairly confident I hadn't put on a shirt with a verse about sinning. But it took me a few seconds to remember what my shirt said. It's the Bible verse from Proverbs 22:6 "Train up a child the way he should go, and when he is old, he will not depart from it." It was kinda an awakening moment. For the last 15 years I have been "training up" other people's children along with my own of course. Now is my time to slow down and really focus on my role with my kids.
Slowing down has been tougher for me then I thought. I have no regrets about quiting my job or starting my private practice, I feel fully confident of God's hand in that.
My struggle is to
STOP worrying about the dishes
STOP focusing on the laundry
STOP trying to get the living room picked up.
My role right now is to
PLAY play dough (blah)
CHEER loudly
ENCOURAGE perseverance
and LOVE like crazy!
I struggle everyday to keep my patience, remember I'm here to model to my children, and not get overwhelmed with what is not getting done. But God isn't finished with me yet and he daily sends my reminders of how truly blessed I am.
